Leaving on a jet plane!

In all honesty, I haven't been okay. I've been busy with so many things and offerring for everything, wanting to do everything and anything and in the whole hecticness of it, I seem to have forgotten about the most basic and yet essential thing which is rest. And somehow, I seemed to have lost myself in the craziness of life.

I've been doing everything and anything and as Sis Shufen says, I've been spreading myself and my time out too thin that in the end, the results that I get from what I do are only very superficial and not in depth because I don't have the time to delve deeper into the things I commit myself too.

This whole year, I've been busy with school, debate, skating, church commitments, family, friends and b@s and in the end I didnt have time to rest and now as the year is coming to an end, I feel so burned and so worn out. And as I start to look forward to next year, I daren't even look. I spent last night thinking about O levels, about next year and the future and I was so darn scared that I started crying. And I realised that its because I've been relying too much on myself, and I forgot that it's Gods strength that I need. And that I've been looking at tomorrow wtih my own eyes and not through God's pla which is why I was scared shit. (Pardon the language, but its cos of the lack of better choice of words) Thank you, Gideon Goh for helping me to realise that! I really appreciate it and I know that I didnt make things easy for you, but thank you very very much! And like you said, breakthrough will come and breakthrough came.

I was sending my maid off to the airport for her holiday home and then God spoke through the songs that were playing in the car and I was crying the whole ride home because I realised how painful it is when you do everything by yourself and I finally realised that I cannot do it on my own and that I need God.

Right now, I cannot say that I do not fear the future holds. I am still afraid, I am still worried, but I've learnt and Im learning how to commit it into God's hands once again. I'll be flying off to Europe on Thurs. It will be a good break there, a good time to spend TAWG. I hope that there, I will find myself again.

(Oh and please do not call or sms me unnecessarily after Thurs midnight! People somehow love to call & sms me a lot when Im away!)

Until I feel ready to take time to stop & remember the love again, you can drop by
www.readyset-glo.tumblr.com
its where I will blog for now because I like the sound of the url, but I will be back here again!

XOXO

The art of contentment

God will not give you what you cannot handle.

"He's like a drug for you, Bella." His voice was still gentle, not at all critical. "I see that you can't live without him now. It's too late. But I would ahve been healthier for you. Not a drug; I would have been the air, the sun."

The corner of my mouth turned up in a wistful halfsmile. "I used to think of you that way, you know. Like the sun. My personal sun. You balanced out the clouds nicely for me."

He sighed. "The clouds I can handle. But I can't fight with an eclipse."

- Eclipse, Stephenie Meyer

CONSTER- the campus superstar (HAHA)

I had a freaking hilarious conversation with Conster just awhile ago! I miss my last year partner so much! I still remember how she always makes me laugh (at the wrong time during lessons), how she is so nice to disturb, and how we decided last year that SHE, WILL go for campus superstar this year!
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JOELLE says:

CONSTER

JOELLE says:

ive been waiting for you to come onlineee!

constance :] says:

haha

constance :] says:

why?

JOELLE says:

cos campus superstar is coming out soon so you can go audition!

JOELLE says:

im gna start preparing your banner already ah!

JOELLE says:

hahahah

constance :] says:

i saw the advertisement too

constance :] says:

haha

JOELLE says:

YEAH SO MUST GO AH!

constance :] says:

NOOOOOOOO

JOELLE says:

YESSSSS

JOELLE says:

):

constance :] says:

i am already cool, i dont need competitions like this to emphasize on my coolness

constance :] says:

also, i will post as such a big threat to my fellow competitors

JOELLE says:

nonono

JOELLE says:

cannoooot!

JOELLE says:

you MUST go

JOELLE says:

i will support youu!

constance :] says:

but my large fanbase will burst the voting line

JOELLE says:

HAHAH THATS GOOD WHAT!

JOELLE says:

i help you sign up ookay! 

JOELLE says:

hohoho

JOELLE says:

so eggciting!

constance :] says:

NOOOOOOOOOO

constance :] says:

NOOOOOOOOOOO

JOELLE says:

YESSS! (:

JOELLE says:

i will ask jien and everyone to support you too!!

constance :] says:

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

constance :] says:

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO

constance :] says:

NOOOOOOOOOO

constance :] says:

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO

(and here she goes brb, so its carried on from when she comes back)

constance :] says:

back

JOELLE says:

haha yes okay

JOELLE says:

lets plan what song you are going to sing for the audition!

constance :] says:

i dun wanna

constance :] says:

you can go

constance :] says:

then marcus can teach you how to sing

JOELLE says:

nooo

JOELLE says:

HAHAHAH

JOELLE says:

ZOMG

JOELLE says:

no

JOELLE says:

-.-

JOELLE says:

YOU CONSTER

JOELLE says:

!

constance :] says:

and he will regconise you as the one who scared him

JOELLE says:

HAHAHA

JOELLE says:

no he wont!

JOELLE says:

he didnt even see my face can!

JOELLE says:

):

constance :] says:

haha.. you should use the chance to scare then he will  hug you

hahaha

JOELLE says:

OH YEAH WHY DIDNT I THINK OF LIKE SCARING HIM MORE RIGHT?!

constance :] says:

ya, precisely.. cos you werent thinking as usual

constance :] says:

haha, jk jk

JOELLE says:

SO MEAN ):

JOELLE says:

for that i will CHOOSE your song

JOELLE says:

(but i choose good songs!)

constance :] says:

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

JOELLE says:

how about...

constance :] says:

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

constance :] says:

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO

JOELLE says:

whats the song ah?

JOELLE says:

the..

constance :] says:

MOOOOOOOOOO

constance :] says:

MOOOOOOOOOOO

JOELLE says:

FINEEE

constance :] says:

MOOOOOOOO

JOELLE says:

YOU CHOOSE YOURSELF!

constance :] says:

MOOOOOOOOOO

constance :] says:

 i want none

JOELLE says:

AWW CONSTER! ):

JOELLE says:

okay okay

JOELLE says:

no song okay!

JOELLE says:

YOU CAN MAKE YOUR OWN!

constance :] says:

JOELLE YONG ZU ER!

JOELLE says:

WHAT?!

constance :] says:

i call you square bag next ttime ar..

JOELLE says:

hahaha

JOELLE says:

call lah!!

constance :] says:

SQUARE BAG

JOELLE says:

at least the campus superstar is my friend!

constance :] says:

hmpf

JOELLE says:

LOL LOL!

constance :] says:

i want to kill you

constance :] says:

ask jien nee join, i cant sing

JOELLE says:

cannnnooot!

JOELLE says:

if you kill me! then no one will support you like me!

JOELLE says:

no more number 1 fan eh! ):

JOELLE says:

hahah

JOELLE says:

can! you two can join togetherr!

JOELLE says:

good idea!

JOELLE says:

i can help you choose your songsss

constance :] says:

NO

constance :] says:

I OBJECT

constance :] says:

NOOOOOO

constance :] says:

you cant do that to me

constance :] says:

your cool friend

JOELLE says:

why cannot! i want everyone to know my cool friend too!

JOELLE says:

THINK ABOUT IT CON! YOU WILL HAVE FANS EH!

JOELLE says:

THEN PEOPLE WILL SHOUT YOUR NAME YOU KNOW "CONSTER! CONSTER! CONSTER!"

JOELLE says:

dont you like it!

JOELLE says:

AND YOU WILL BE FAMOUS!

JOELLE says:

ON TV EH!

constance :] says:

i am famous enough

JOELLE says:

not yettt!

JOELLE says:

MORE FAMOUS!

constance :] says:

it's ok, i'm a contented girl

JOELLE says:

you cannot stay contented! you must want more!

JOELLE says:

you must want to make your life better con!

JOELLE says:

tskk!

constance :] says:

it's not bad already

JOELLE says:

i know. but coooler you know!

JOELLE says:

anyway, take it as a FUN opp!

constance :] says:

but i 'm happy

JOELLE says:

JUST HAVE FUN DOOOD!

constance :] says:

not fun

JOELLE says:

you will be happier!

constance :] says:

no

JOELLE says:

so next time when you grow old, you can tell your grandchildren that "you know, your grandmother once took part in campus superstar! it was so fun!"

JOELLE says:

hahahah

I went on somemore and she continued to say no. But conster! DO US PROUD MAN! We agreed last year remember!!

I MISS CONSTER! AND I MISS THE SPASTIC GROUP LAST YEAR!

XOXO

I shall go off and listen to chinese songs to help conster find a nice song to sing for her auditions! HAHAHA.

56

Hello world! I know I havent been updating and Deannosaur asked me to post (last week) so here I am! I've been busy with B@S (Finals this Saturday!), skating and post exams enrichments the past few weeks and really, there's nothing that exciting to post about until a few days back.

So on Tues, we had an enrichment called Career Quest and you can pretty much tell by the name what it is about. It wasn't exciting considering that I fell asleep but I realised after the enrichment that maybe, I dont really know what I want to be when I grow up. I always thought that when I grow up, I shall do law because thats what I thought I want to do, maybe because law is known to be a high paying job. But after Career Quest, Im not so sure anymore. Im not sure if it is really what I want. If I want to go through the many years of law and discover that maybe that is not what I really want. Though part of me still insists that I want it. I'm not even sure if I want to go to a JC anymore! I suddenly feel so displaced after Career Quest. Honestly, I just want to do something that I like, that will make me happy, you know? Even as idealistic and naive as I am, I know that it is impossible because life isnt really that simple anymore. It's all about the number game. In school, its about getting the highest marks in tests and the lowest points for O levels. In the working world, its about earning the highest pay with the most zeroes at the back. Or maybe, hopefully, I'm wrong and that its possible to do what you're happy with as long as you're contented!

Ding Xue Er, call me soon okay! I have a lot a lot of things to tell you- happy stuff, funny stuff, sad stuff and cool stuff (: I miss you truckloaads!

Okay, so I just posted to rant a little. But on a happier note!

Got a new haircut! I'm still getting used to it, but its good cos I dont have to tie my hair in the mornings and it's a nice change.  I like Nina's hair! (Joe Jonasss!) HAHA.

Even though the rink's closed, and I will miss seeing people like Shihui, Qi En, Su, Max, Arthur, Rong Xing and the other tuesday & wed skaters, we had a lot of fun at the farewell party and the day before!

Now, I've got a pair of new skates (!), a new rink and I'm waiting for my new coach! How exciting! I really am looking forward to breaking into my new pair of skates (I managed to do a good loop with my new skates, so Im v. happy!) , finding the ball (of my foot) on my new blades and starting prep for Nationals next year! Awesomeness!

But I will miss Da Xiao! ):

Farewell at Fuji Ice Palace♥

And then there was Coach Training which was awesome too! I met wonderful new people and I learnt a lot of things from a new perspective (: I really do look forward to coaching!!

AKLTG Coach Training 11/10- 12/10♥

To upload all the pictures will take too long, so click on the different links to see them on Facebook!

OH OH OH, how can I forget!

YONG JOELLE WILL BE LEAVING FOR ITALY & SWITZERLAND FROM THE 27TH NOV TO 10TH DEC.
I was originally supposed to leave on my birthday so that I can celebrate my birthday on the plane, and I was so upset when the travel agency cancelled it! Bah. But Im still going to the same place, just a few days later, sooo! I will still have to learn french, spanish and german and all the languages from Krit!

Buenos Noches! (goodnight!)